It’s been a while since I’ve written anything.
I’ve been busy with moving and making life changes and doing a major cleanse.
First things first – MOVING. I’m done! What. A. Relief.
I’m so happy to be out of my old place and into my new one. The feeling of weight being lifted from my shoulders almost felt literal once I was finally out of my previous apartment. It’s amazing how negative connotations can bring such a bad vibe to certain places, people, or situations. My previous home held a lot of bad memories – things that I don’t want to remember, but have definitely shaped me and made me appreciate how lucky I am to have a supportive family and a true, solid network of friends. My last place taught me a lot about life struggles, and that life is always going to throw you curves and try and knock you down. Nobody has it easy, and living in such a negative environment really made me wake up and realize that there are people out there that have it a whole lot worse than I do. To those of you: I applaud you and I look up to you. It takes such courage and strength to overcome some of the obstacles that we come across in this journey called life.
But, with negativity ALWAYS comes positivity. Our world is constantly trying to balance itself in one way or another. With war eventually comes peace (if only temporary, it is for a spell). With great sacrifice comes leaps and bounds. With weakness we find strength. And even in darkness, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
With this move I felt a sense of calm and a sense of hope. A literal moving in the sense of packing up my life and changing locations, but also a move from bad to good. From past to present to future. A year in the dark is finally bringing me light. A year surrounded by people who made the phrase “The Blind Leading the Blind” the truest statement I’ve ever heard. I’m finally in a place where I don’t wake up every day being afraid of what said day will bring. In my old place I used to push “snooze” until the last possible second. My room was decorated in dark purple and red and black – it was literally a cave that I holed up in every single day. My only escape was work and going out on the weekends and drowning my sorrows in a never ending bottle of something.
That is NOT a life. That is, in a sense, death.
My new place is LITERALLY the polar opposite of my last. It embraces the sun all day long, bringing light and warmth and a feeling of hope; whereas my last spot faced away – it was dark, cold, small, and lifeless. The complete 180 this move has made of my life is truly incredible and I am awestruck every single day at the signs I’m seeing and the positive changes that are happening in every single way.
I just hope that all of you take this to heart and are inspired by this. It is impossible for life to bring you down forever. It is always an ongoing challenge and there will always be struggles, but we must always remember that opposites attract. The bad will ALWAYS bring good. The hate will eventually bring love. Humans are one of the only emotional beings on planet Earth – that is unique in and of itself, but it is also our biggest downfall. We have to learn to let things go, and we have to remember that we don’t always have the power to control things. But when we DO, we should use that power to turn our lives into something spectacular. We should try and influence and radiate positivity wherever we go.
It is, truly, the most addictive thing in the entire world. And it is the one addiction I don’t ever want to give up.