I haven’t written anything in a while. And it’s not for lack of inspiration because I’ve honestly had plenty to say. But everything I began to write would, more often than not, end up heading in a negative direction. And while I fully believe in writing to release inner demons, it is not the message I want to send to the world via my blog.
So, for now, I will be keeping those posts to myself.
I do, however, want to go all cliche and emotional since it’s the end of the year and everybody’s doing it and, well, why the heck not?
It’s funny how our concept of time changes as we advance in age. I can remember in my youth [okay, my younger youth] feeling like it took ages and ages for Christmas to come. A whole year seemed to go on in the span of several. And now, time seems to be sprinting by. One minute it’s New Year’s Day, and in the blink of an eye another year has passed.
As I sit here thinking about how I’ve spent my last 365 days, I realize how lucky I am to have had such a positive and wonderful year. I mean, sure, this past year, like all the others, has definitely had its ups and downs, but coming out at the tail end of it all, I am grateful to say that it’s been mostly good.
I was fortunate enough to witness two beautiful and completely different unions of love [one of which I had the pleasure of actually being a part of]. I myself put my own heart on the line – I dated, I put myself out there which is something I don’t often do [read: never]. I grew leaps and bounds in my career, I traveled, I traveled with my dog. The list could go on and on. And while of course there were some not so pleasant moments scattered amongst the good, I realize that life is just one gigantic learning curve. Are we going to learn from our first mistake? Or will we make the same one over and over until we discover we can no longer live with ourselves?
And what of New Year’s Resolutions? I sure am not one to make them, let alone stick to them. When I was younger I’d stack up a long list of things I wanted to accomplish or change in the coming year. And then a week later I’d have misplaced that list and never given it a second thought.
So instead of making a list of things I want to accomplish, I will make one for what I know I will accomplish.
I know I will advance in my career. I know I will be closer to buying a home. I know I will continue to date and meet new people and remain on the path towards finding love. And I know that throughout all of my experiences I will still be myself. I will still be true to me.
And that, I think, is the most important resolution of all.